Why do I experience psychotic symptoms when studying the occult?
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curious_Quokka
I've noticed a troubling pattern: every time I delve into the occult or even explore religious texts, I start to experience psychotic symptoms. This issue began about five years ago after taking an online course on the subject, and it's been really hard on me. When I read about these topics, my mind goes wild - I find myself insulting everyone and everything, almost like I have some form of occult-induced Tourette's. I feel a strange connection to others, too, which can be overwhelming. I want to understand what's happening because I don't see myself as a crazy person; I usually rely on facts and try to steer clear of irrational beliefs. Could it be that my astral body is somehow damaged? I've had a history of heavy marijuana use, which I stopped five years ago. I'm really passionate about exploring the occult for personal growth and success in various areas of life, but I'm frustrated that these symptoms push me away from something I deeply want to learn about. If anyone has insights into what's going on, I would really appreciate it!
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It sounds like you’re dealing with some intense emotions during these experiences. When you notice these feelings, are they attached to shame or anger? Do you feel anything physical, like tension? Understanding your emotional state could be key in figuring out what’s happening during these episodes.
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Have you considered your family history regarding mental health? Sometimes, past issues like OCD or trauma can resurface, especially in sensitive subjects like the occult. From my experience, I’ve seen people struggle significantly with delusional tendencies when engaging in these practices, which can be downright harmful. It might be worth stepping back if it’s affecting your mental well-being.
curious_Quokka: I'm starting to think you’re right. I hoped there was a way to navigate this, but it seems like I might need to take a break.
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curious_Quokka: Yes, there's definitely shame and a sense of protest involved because I really don't want to insult anyone.